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One thing that sucks about being considered high functioning is that you really doubt how disabled you really are. Then when it hits you that you are really as disabled as that, you feel crappy because you struggle so much.
What’s even worse is that because you seem so capable to others, they expect a lot more from you and when you don’t reach those expectations, you are scorned. If you tell them that you are struggling with it because of your disability, people think you’re just being a wuss and not trying hard enough, even if you try hard every single day to cope.
Another problem (slightly related) is when you meet other, more accomplished autistics who turn out to have been far more severe than you were during childhood. I mean, obviously you are impressed and feel happy for them, but then you start feeling shitty and start wondering if maybe you are just flawed as a person.
These are silly little insecurities that I have, but they do have an impact. I wonder if others identify with this?